So.. It’s Sunday. All I’ve done is sleep all day (mentally needed it). Had my coffee, took the pup out, enjoyed the weather. Now, this.
Quite honestly, My posts have felt so forced on here lately. And I’m sure you can tell. I’ve just been so off and I’m sorry, you guys really deserve to read really good, from the heart content, and I’m going to make sure you guys ALWAYS get that. I was on a Sunday/Wednesday schedule, but I think my posts are going to be completely random from now on, just so I’m able to be raw and 10000% real with everyone. Deal? 🙂
(of course sad days call for coffee and my favorite candies)
With that set aside, yesterday was probably the most heartbreaking road trip of my life. We had to give up my baby girl, because of the bullshit the Humane Society fed us.
Ben and I live in a small apartment, so we wanted a second dog that was pretty lazy like Samael is, just so she wouldn’t feel so trapped, etc. But no. They had lied to give her up, and she is theeeeee most hyper pup I’ve ever had. Don’t get me wrong, that wasn’t bad at all, she was such a sweetheart and gave so much love. I just couldn’t keep her knowing she needed to be in a huge yard running around, because she wasn’t a lazy pup. So, we brought her over to my mother-in-law. She will get just as much love, and absolutely everything she needs. I’m happy that I KNOW she will be in good hands, and I’ll still be able to see her.
It hasn’t hit Sam yet, but it definitely hit me already. It’s so quiet here now. Sam is just sleeping next to me as I write this, and I don’t want to see him sad. So, I’m doing what I can to keep him distracted.
BUT trying to stay happy. With all this stress and shit life has been throwing at me, I’m still standing. I have to be able to support my husband as much as he supports me, so I’m staying as strong as I can.
Here’s to a better week and better days ahead. I love you guys.